My Sweet Life

Last night it happened.

I didnt expect it to happen that way, I didnt expect to lose it to someone like him, but I did.  I thought I could handle It, thought I'm matured enough to do it, but now I'm not sure.

He had just left my room, he wanted to stay longer but I have to ask him to go. As soon as I heard the door closed, I started crying. Did it really happen? I asked myself. I was hoping that it was all a dream, but the bedsheets and the pain tell me otherwise.

They say a woman never forget her first. That is so true, for I remember every second of it. I remember everything that happened that lead to last night, from the flirting, the talking, the sweet moments, the parties, the drinking and finally that moment.

Everything was special and something that I want to cherish forever. Here is how it all started....

Two weeks ago I left for Singapore for a 10-day training. I was really excited. I'm leaving with 4 other officemates and meeting my ex-bf for a few days.

I need this trip, I need a break, I need something new. I've conditioned myself to enjoy this trip to the fullest, meaning shop-till-you-drop, visit all the places to go to and most of all party to the max. Im single and currently unattached, perfect timing indeed.

I will definitely enjoy this trip as I am travelling with the people that I enjoy time with in the office:

Derek - Senior Manager from our R&D group, he is smart, witty, makulit and cute. He is in his mid 30s, atheletic, married and someone fun to be with. We've been close for the last few months since he invited me to join the running club. I've been with him in office parties and he is someone na you can feel safe with.

Allan - Young wizard consultant from our team, 20ish and very metro sexual. Sometimes I feel that he goes for facial more often than me. He is also cute, girls from the office like him, very clean and neat daw. I think he likes me though, he bought me UAAP Finals  tickets even though he is not Green blooded like me. We had coffee a few times but he never really asked me out seriously. But If he does, I'll probably say ..hmmm....yes.

Jay - Manager from our Tech group. He has the bad-boy aura though I can sense that he is bit warm-hearted deep inside. He has a gf from our team and they have been very sweet in the office. He used to YM me alot when they had a cool-off, I felt I was the shoulder to cry on friend. He told everything about his gf and their situation then. Now they are ok and we dont YM much anymore. I actually miss his YMs. He was a good potential....

Grace - Marketing Manager, very cool, funny and super gimmickera ng office.  She can actually finish 1 pitcher of Margarita and 2 Red Horse, in any order. Her BF is also cool and wil follow her in Singapore for a few days, isn't that sweet?

I'm also excited to meet my ex-BF Mark. He is now studying in Sing, and has invited me to spend some nights in his apartment. I'm still thinking about it.

14 days in Singapore.

10 training days.

With 1 girl

4 men.

One of them changed me forever.